Eh. Maybe Not.

I think I confused some of you...I'm not home yet. I'm still in Thailand.
But I will be home in 4 days which should be cycle day 8.
Should be.
But I still haven't started my period. Not even a hint.
I've never been this late. Ever.
So all of those carefully laid plans in my last post? I'm not feeling so confident anymore.
Maybe I was just too late to this baby game to play.
If I can carry K's baby, that would be great, but if not.....well. I don't know.
What's meant to be will be.

It's hard to believe I'll be turning 40 in 2 months.
Oh well, it could be worse.
It can always be worse.

Right now, I'm looking forward to going home, having clean clothes, not sweeping gecko poo from my cabana floor 3xday and no mosquito nets. Small things in life, but very important.
Mostly, I'm looking forward to being with my baby again.

You'll hear from me on a regular basis back here soon...

Decision Time

If you haven't been following along with me on the travel site, that's where I'm blogging these days.
http://www.travelblog.org/Bloggers/Puffstuff/
I made a decision while I was in the silent retreat. Here's my plan: my cycle is back to normal, no more weird wonkiness and I felt my ovulation right on time. This is all really good news.
I have a box full of meds waiting for me at home. I've decided to use them and give this IVF ONE LAST SHOT. We have just enough sperm left for me to do this and still have 2 vials left for K to do IVF/egg donor.
If I have another bad response to the drugs...well, then I'll know for sure, won't I?
If I have a good response and proceed ahead, the transfer would be on April 30th.
April 30th would have been my due date.