Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Saturday, February 23, 2008
I had to go to Memphis a few days for work. There's a lot to do in Memphis; Graceland, the Civil Rights Museum...the FOOD.
We went to Gus's famous fried chicken and the BBQ Shop. I will admit this was the best BBQ I've ever had in my life! YUM!
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
I found my old High School crush today. He’s right here in NYC and works for the same ad agency that I used to work for when I first moving to NYC. I wasn’t ‘looking’ for him. But I was doing some research, came across a name similar to his and thought “what ever happened to…?” So, of course I Googled him. And he had a website that led me right to him. Three hours later we were emailing with each other.
I come from a pretty small town in middle of nowhere
We’re going to meet up next week. This is sooo weird!
Edited to add: We didn't get to meet up, he got the flu...still looking for a date that works for both of us
Monday, February 18, 2008
It is incredibly uncomfortable to eat a banana in the gate area filled mostly with men. Wow. I made sure to only use my teeth, but the stares never stopped.
In other news—hey there’s Evander Holyfeld. Wow, he’s big. But I’m only 5’2, so everyone is big.
No, I did not get his autograph, although in hindsight, I should have, if only to sell it on Ebay and make some baby Ca$h.
It’s been a great four days in the sun, although a long time with Grams. I’ve never been happy to leave the beach and sunshine, but really I can’t wait to get home, see the kitties, sleep in my own bed and not have anyone hovering over me!
Friday, February 15, 2008
My RE called me yesterday on Valentine’s Day and it was a lovely phone call. It made me like him even more. Honestly, I assumed given my age and (slightly) elevated FSH that he would be willing to try an IUI but with meds. Nope. This is what he said, “You know, the problem we have here is that we don’t know anything about your fertility. I mean, you haven’t even tried, right? (right!). So for all we know you could be an incredibly fertile woman. Most women who come to me have already been trying and they know there is a problem, but we don’t know anything about you at all. So, let’s try a few IUI without meds and then go from there.”
How beautiful is that? I mistakenly thought because he’s the head of a big fertility clinic and we all know it’s about the numbers that he would push for the his best outcome for the numbers. But he didn’t.
I am so happy to think that this time next month I’ll be getting myself sperminated. FINALLY! Let’s get this show on the road!!!
Thanks Dr. VID, that was a great Valentine’s Day phone call.
Monday, February 11, 2008
My third FSH came back last Friday.
It’s normal, totally normal. I mean, it’s elevated slightly, but well within an OK range.
What does this mean? Did I have a faulty lab blood test? I’m beginning to really think that I did.
Even my RE is mystified at the huge range in numbers. Even with the lab operating on a different scale, those numbers are too far off.
I sat on it for a couple of days as I thought about the idea of doing an IUI. Me. My Baby. Not that having K’s egg’s wouldn’t make it my baby, because ultimately it’s going to be OUR baby, but I’m starting to think I wouldn’t mind a little mini me so much after all.
When I thought that I couldn’t have children, my mind mentally shut off the idea and I didn’t care to dwell on it anymore. I had a brief cry in the kitchen one night and felt a little blue, but really didn’t want to go there because what was the point. I’ve suffered from enough hardness, sadness and depression in my lifetime, I really didn’t want this to throw me back to the dark recesses of my mind. I had comfort knowing there was a backup plan, K’s eggs, either in my (perfect!) uterus or her own. One way or another we would have children.
But these blood tests change everything. Over the past couple of days I’ve found myself thinking, “hey, who I am isn’t that bad, it wouldn’t be such a bad thing to pass on these genes”, in the end…well, it’s all really a crap shoot, isn’t it?
Friday, February 8, 2008
I had my third and final FSH test this morning. It's 11.8, totally within an OK range. I feel very strongly that the first test was a lab error. It just doesn't make sense for all three test to come back with good/OK range numbers and that first test of 21 to be so high.
This changes everything. I'm more confused than ever. We thought we were on to IVF using K's eggs. Deal done. When do we start?
Not so fast now...I haven't talked to my RE, but I'm beginning to feel like maybe I should try. He told me the last time we spoke that I am his normal age range and that he would think it perfectly OK to try with me first.
Friday, February 1, 2008
Tahoe got over four feet of snow while we were there, I heard it was the most snow in something like 30 years. We totally lucked out.