Wednesday, February 18, 2009

The Goddess is Smiling Even Tho AF is Nowhere to be Found.

Hello again.  We have been extremely busy here in Pufferland.  Much busier than when I actually had a job.  Anyway....
Where to start?  Well, life is good.  No, scratch that, life is Great.  K calmed down a lot about the job situation and everyone knows the Puffer is very resourceful and now no one in the family is worried.  It's nice when people have faith in you and put the spreadsheets away.

I feel like I'm at a big crossroad.  Which way to turn?  I need some insight and clarity.  I get away.
Oh yes, you saw that coming, didn't you?  Well, I am on a break and AF is late and this cycle was a bust anyway.
I've got no TTC plans coming up, I've got no job to go to and K is working on a project from the timing is great.
K has known from the very beginning that I get itchy; I have a gypsy soul.

I thought I would head to India and go to an ashram for the next month.  But that didn't pan out in the end and all signs kept pointing me back to the place I love the most.  So, I'm going back to Thailand.  I found a 1o-day Buddhist meditation retreat.
I think it's going to be the hardest thing I've ever done.  Silent for 10 days.  That's a lot of meditation.  But I'm really looking forward to it.  The rest of the time I'll spend in the jungle and on the beaches, my two favorite places.

K is an absolute doll and is very supportive of my trip. She thinks it's great I like to do all of these crazy things by myself.  I couldn't ask for a better partner in life.  She really gets me.

But you didn't come here to read about my travels.  You came here to read about my journey TTC.  I don't know where that journey is going to take me.  It's looking more and more like my eggs are fried.  Since we have the option of K as my egg donor, I really feel that's the way we'll go.  
The thyroid meds are working their wonders!  I feel great!  I didn't feel bad before, but WOW, I feel so much better.  It's really incredible.  So, I feel good about the future.  It will all work out.  It's out of my hands.

If you do want to read about my travels, I'll be posting on a separate travel blog.  
Here is the link:

I'll be following all of you from the road when I can...and wishing everyone BFP's.  Be back in the Springtime...

xoxo Puff 


Lizzie said...

This gypsy soul is so happy (and calm) for you. Love, love, love.

Lizzie said...

Oh, and while I'm being honest (!), add jealous to the happy and calm. :) ......... Safe travels, much learning, much relaxation and all the good (and god) and beauty and growth and clarity that comes with travel and immersion in another culture, being outside your comfort zone, staying somewhere that you don't speak the local language so that the 'noise' of life doesn't always filter in, and etc. Um, yeah, jealous. xoxooxooxoxox

tbean said...

Wow Puffer! You really are amazing! Happy and safe and peaceful travels to you. xo

Heidi said...

Wow!! I hope your travels are wonderful, and that you get everything you want and need from them

(I can't get the link to the new blog to work! I want to be able to follow)

A said...

Wow! That sounds like a wonderful trip. I hope it gives you the clarity you need. I'll be looking forward to following your journey.

Have a great time!

Anonymous said...

sounds like an *amazing* trip, i cant wait to read about it! wishing you very safe travels.

cindyhoo2 said...

wow! what an amazing trip you have scheduled and what an amazing partner you have. I am so happy for you and I just know that you will find your truth in all that silence.

Anonymous said...

Wow, I can safely say that I could never do such a trip. But I'm glad you found something you want to do and I hope you have a fabulous time!

I can't wait to hear all about it.

eeney meeney miney mommy said...

Have a wonderful trip and stay safe my dear. I will miss your daily posting but I know you will have an amazing time. I hope you come back refreshed and renewed.

Anonymous said...

Sounds like a perfect trip for you to be taking right now, I hope it brings some wonderful things your way!

I'll definitely be checking out your blog - I can't seem to get the new link that you just posted to work either, but I also can't get into the main site so maybe it's their issue.. I'll keep trying anyway.

Good luck and enjoy!