Monday, June 29, 2009

Two Becomes One: Meet Chicklet

I've been very anxious this past week wondering what's going on 'in there'. I have had no morning sickness to speak of and very few 'signs' that I'm pregnant at all.
There have been twinges 'down there' and some almost-but-not-quite cramp-like feelings that come and go.
Tittzenhurten has subsided and been replaced by Tittzenhugen which my wife is extremely appreciative of. I rather like looking down at cleavage myself. I catch myself thinking "wow, your tits look great!" I'm a 32B, so I'll take some more cleavage, yes please.
Oh, and I've eaten at KFC twice in two weeks. WTF?!? I've walked by this KFC for 5 years and have not once opened those fried chicken doors, but now? This could be a fried chicken pregnancy. So very weird.

But overall, I've been feeling that there were two...and now there's just one. I have not felt like I'm going to have twins.
There was a part of me, after the initial freakout, that became rather intoxicated at the idea of having twins. We talked about and of course, we could do it.
It sounded exciting and well, who doesn't love a two-for-one special when you're paying this kind of money for a baby?

Realistically however, I am one of those women who never has secretly wished for twins. For starters, I'm small. Very small. I'm 5'2, 105 lbs with less than 4 inches between my ribcage and pelvic bone. Fitting in two babies on any frame is less than comfortable, but with me, I really wondered if bed rest and extreme pain would be in my future as well as medical intervention and a C-section.
I was not looking forward to a twin pregnancy, but as with all things in life, I knew I could handle it if that's what the universe handed me and I knew I would be thrilled and grateful beyond belief for 2 babies.

Last night I said to Chicken, "I think there were two, but now there's only one". I just felt it.

And today...
I present to you.. our Chicklet:
Indeed there are two sacs, but one much bigger and only one tiny, flickering heartbeat.
Upon confirmation that there were not two, empty, dead baby sacs in my uterus, I actually belted out, as if I were auditioning for 'Young Frankenstein', "It's ALIVE!"

Chicken was there with me, squeezing my hand and smiling with relief. She never really had any doubts there was something wrong, but me, I was scared shitless. Actually, that's totally true. Before they did the ultrasound I had to poo. My adrenaline was pumped up so high I thought I might actually be having morning sickness because I felt like vomiting.

Whew. We are, naturally, both a little sad that we had two and one left us. But we are also relieved and believe that what was meant to happen--happened.
One baby. Here we are. 6 weeks to the day. I am so incredibly happy. I feel like I can breathe a little easier now.

And yes, we weren't going to have a scan until 7 weeks...but I insisted.

39 comments:

Caitlin Weaver said...

This is so exciting I want to do cartwheels! And I can't wait to see your tits. :)

wishinghopingpraying said...

Congratulations! I am so happy to see that healthy litte chicklet growing.A very happy, healthy 9 months to you.

Melissa said...

Yay! That must be a relief to finally see what's going on in there.

Jackie said...

Congrats on the healthy chicklet. You have some intuition lady! Love and many hugs!

(Hope to see you two soon!)

Keely said...

Hooray! Glad you insisted, and that you that flickering heartbeat with your own eyes.
Now, put down that fried chicken and hug your real-live chicken: congratulations on your chicklet!

tbean said...

Hooray for the chicklet!

AdventuresInBabyMaking said...

How incredible! Glad to hear all is well w/ Chicklet!

N said...

Go go chicklet! I am so so happy and relieved for you that there is a baby in there. Stick around, chicklet, this is a great place to be.

Liz Porter said...

So happy to hear that you have one very healthy and happy flickering-heartbeat of a sac inside you!!! ;-) (secretly wishing you get a girl)

anofferingoflove said...

wonderful news! congrats on the great scan and beautiful heartbeat! :)

Mommy D said...

Congrats Prego Puffer!!!! So happy for you!

Christine Allen said...

hip hip hurray!
HIP HIP HURRAY!
I think it's a bit too early for morning sickness. Most people don't find out they are pregnant until 7-8 weeks. but I'm only speaking from my experience so.. yours could be different because you're SO in-tune to your body.. See you Wed girl.. Lots of Hugs until then!

cindyhoo2 said...

I love this post! I can feel your joy radiating through. Yay that all is well and that your motherly intuition seems to be on track.

Enjoy the new bbs as well!

Inlocoparentis said...

I haven't had a lick of morning sickness and very little nausea, but I have had a few KFC cravings too . . . weird! WELCOME, CHICKLET!

poppycat said...

Amazing and beautiful! I am so happy for Puffer, Chicken and Chicklet. Hooray and big fat congrats! Oh, and bonus on the new tatas!

queerstork said...

Roohay! Very cute blob. I'm glad that you're glad that it's a singleton. Healthy, strong, and able to fit herself in that tiny body of yours! So happy, happy day. Congratulations.

Laurie said...

What an adorable little one you have there!! The heartbeat is the most amazing sound, isn't it??

thebao said...

YAYYYY!! congratulations. So exciting!
Your post cracked me up, btw.

vee said...

Such great news, albeit tinged with a little sadness at the would-have-been twin. Such a tiny beating heart, but such great relief and joy! Congratulations!

projectkjetil said...

Wow... welcome to the blogosphere, Chicklet! Congratulations to you all!

jessie said...

congrats! welcome chicklet!

Jen said...

Congratulations on chicklet! So exciting. Morning sickness will probably come and once it does, you will wish it never did. And, your boobs will continue to grow--I am 12 weeks and already up a cup size so I had to go buy new bras; not thrilled as I am already well endowed. Eat whatever you can b/c that may pass as well!

evangeline said...

WOOOOHOOOOO!!!! I kept checking back hoping for an earlier ultrasound and it happened!!!! I'm SOOOOOOO excited for all of you!!! This is a pregnancy I'm really overjoyed to follow!!!

shindagrl said...

I can't begin to express how happy I am for you both. I love you dearly. CONGRATS!!!!

Next in Line said...

Yay for the chicklet with a little heartbeat already!!

tireegal68 said...

wow -that happened so fast!!! fantastic:) so glad you got a heartbeat and a singleton which is sounding like a good thing I hear.

Tui said...

Yay for the awesome scan - so glad you were able to hear the heartbeat and all is well with Chicklet (love the name!). Congrats again :)

glamcookie said...

So wonderful! Congratulations, Mama!

Gia said...

awwww hiya Sexy!!!!! sighhhh bring on another turkey baster baby!!!!!!

insertmetaphor said...

Congratulations on a healthy, beautiful Chicklet! And so long to Chicklet's twin who wasn't ready for this world.

2girlsandtheirfamily said...

Congratulations!!! Sixth sense much??? :) Hi Chicklet!!! Great to see you! Now let your Moms enjoy a nice easy pregnancy! :)

Hanen said...

Woo hoo! That must be a tricky feeling to be celebrating a beautiful healthy little single chicklet at the same time as knowing the other one didn't make it. But you are right in that this makes for a much lower risk pregnancy. Amazing intuition!

We've just hit 8 weeks now and after having zero queasiness in the first few weeks, I've started feeling a bit queasy if I haven't eaten anything for a while - so don't be alarmed if you are lucky enough to skip the morning sickness.

Mommy and Mamita said...

I wasn't expecting to see an ultrasound pic from you so early. Sorry that one of the twins did not make it, but that is really encouraging that you could see a heartbeat at 6 weeks for chicklet. I hope all continues to progress well. When is your next scan?

Gayby Rabies said...

Wow, it's amazing that your intuition was spot on. It's great that you were able to get the u/s moved up, you must be relieved to finally know what's going on.

luckylittle13 said...

Well that is just the cutest little u/s picture I have ever seen. I'm sorry that one left, but I am so excited for Chicklet!

tiff said...

Wow!!!!!!!!! How incredible that you just KNEW. I think that is amazing!! The photo is awesome.....I am just so so thrilled for you guys!!!!!! Wishing you the happiest and healthiest pregnancy EVER. xo

This Mom said...

Congratulations for Chicklet! I'm sorry that the other didn't make it, but so relieved to hear that you are pregnant with one healthy baby.

chicklet said...

Woohoo! And what a brilliant name I might add;-)

Carey said...

Congrats - here's to a healthy pregnancy!!!