Sunday, July 26, 2009

Confessions of the Freaked Out Pregnant Lady at Nine Weeks

Hi, I've been quiet and now I'm getting emails asking if I'm OK and even Chicken has noticed that I haven't blogged in a long time, so here I am.
This last week (week 9) really through me for a loop. There were things that happened here in blogland that scared the beejesus out of me and that combined with my distinct lack of morning sickness had me feeling very, very panicky.

I haven't wanted to blog about the morning sickness out of guilt. Basically, I wrote about my food aversions in week 7 and was like I sent that out in the universe and things got better. So, yeah, I've had one week where I felt kinda bad and week 8 and 9 have been really good.
So good that I started believing there was no way I could still be pregnant (yes, even though I had an ultrasound in week 8 that assured me everything was fine). The assurance an ultrasound brings can last a week or 24 hours.

I do have some 'ick of the stomach', but I also think I've learned what is working with my body and have a routine:
  • eat saltines before getting out of bed
  • wait 20 minutes
  • put on accupressure wrist bands
  • go to kitchen and make smoothie
  • in the morning eat something every 2 hours
  • in the afternoon eat something every 2-3 hours
  • green apples are the best
  • movement is good
  • laying around makes me feel worse
  • water must be ice cold and with lemon, lime or orange slices
  • in the evening eat something every 3-4 hours
  • ice cream is your friend
  • don't eat too much
  • don't eat too little
  • never take your prenatal after only eating a side salad (the only time I've puked!)
  • never go to bed hungry
Being an RE patient you become used to those ultrasounds and constant check up's and by Friday I had decided I was tired of being anxious and freaking out and damn it I wanted an ultrasound.
Saturday morning Chicken and I walked up to the clinic and lo and behold as my RE said "there they are, two little human beings"
To which I replied, "And they're alive?" Because even though I'm right there looking at them this is still all so surreal and wonderful and freaky and amazing. Then we heard the heartbeats and were sent on our way with the RE telling me I was very, very lucky for not having m/s. And I am, I know I really am and I am so grateful for that.

I'm growing humans in my body. At 9 weeks, 5 days, Chicklet and Shadow Boxer are actually starting to look like tiny humans...but still a little like aliens. One baby looks like the body is in 2 parts, but it's just the angle.


N said...

Don't feel too guilty about the lack of m/s - or I'll have to feel guilty, too. ;-) I only ever really got the blech, never got full-on nauseated, but for literally a handful of times.

I'm so excited that you got to see your babes, and that they're doing so well. Strange to see them at that stage, eh? Not quite looking like humans, but definitely so very alive. Congrats!

Melissa said...

So glad the little ones are doing so well!!

Two Moms, Two Monkeys said...

Glad to hear all is well. Don't feel guilty for not feeling sick, not everyone does. Your babies look amazing, nice sacs with lots of fluid! Takes me back to our u/s days not too long ago...I also had withdrawals once I got to the OB phase but luckily with twins you still get monthly u/s because you are considered high risk. I couldn't wait for those appointments to see our boys. I couldn't believe it when my OB said that singleton pregnancies only get one or two u/s for pretty much the whole pregnancy! Consider it a perk of twinland!

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad everything is ok. I imagine that early pregnancy must be very scary for anyone who has gone through what you have to get to where you are. I hope this most recent ultrasound gives you a nice, long relaxing break from the worry. And hooray for no morning sickness!

Anonymous said...

I'm so glad you were able to get a reassuring ultrasound. Those little ones look just perfect, and they reall are starting to look more human!

I don't think I've ever been more terrified than I was during my first trimester. It's hard to keep believing everything could be fine. The great news is that at this point, the odds are finally in your favor. I found when I could focus on that, I felt a tiny bit better. I say consider your lack of full-on m/s the universe giving you a little break.

Hanen said...

Oh - what lovely little human/aliens!

I completely get the whole uncertain about posting / guilt about light-on morning sickness thing. I've been able to hold off the queasiness (except for a couple of unpleasant occasions) mostly just by constant grazing.

We're just on 12 weeks, and given that we had our last ultrasound at week 7, I'm starting to get nervous about whether our own little alien life form is still thriving in there. We're going to beg our GP to try and hear the heartbeat tomorrow, as we're not scheduled for another u/s until 19 weeks.

Anonymous said...

Don't feel guilty about not being crazy sick! I wasn't sick with any of my 4. I just felt kinda icky and flipped out mentally that I was really pregnant. It lasted the whole 1st trimester.
I don't think it really hit me that I was having a baby until I actually gave birth.
I'm so happy to hear you are doing good!

Anonymous said...

Hey, glad to hear from you and hear that things are going well. Great to see both Chicklet and Shadow Boxer too!

jessie said...

your babies are gorgeous!

and you're definitely lucky on the morning sickness, i've heard that it can be a killer with twins.

Inlocoparentis said...

I totally understand what you are going through. I've had no significant pregnancy symptoms (a little of the ick here and there, but that's it) and I didn't really start believing I was pregnant until the 10 week u/s. The only thing that makes me feel better at this point is that most people's morning sickness has receded, so I can just be one of the pack again.

Laurie said...

I'm so happy you updated! We were getting worried. The babies look incredible and adorable. What a great picture. I can't believe you are 9 weeks already. Time sure does fly!

Jackie said...

Try not to feel guilty! You've worked so hard to get and stay where you are. I'm glad you got the little bonus of no m/s.

Your beans look AWESOME! They are looking more and more like little babies.

Oh, I totally forgot to mention yesterday that I'm so into ice cold drinks that I travel with a "beer coozie" in my purse. They are a great way to keep your non-alcoholic beverage of choice extra cold. ;-)

Anonymous said...

I was worried about you when I read those two posts you are talking about and hoping you weren't too nervous about your babies. They look so beautiful and big! I'm glad everything is well in Pufferland and I hope you manage to keep that ick at bay just as you have been.

thebao said...

Sounds like you have ick management down to a science. Nice work!
The babes look great. Thanks for posting the u/s picture!
Also, my word verification word: "blessess". Love!

Anonymous said...

Cuteness! Of course I went straight to the pic and for a moment thought that there were now three! So happy for your TWO healthy little human babes.

cindyhoo2 said...

Congrats on another great u/s. I must admit that I would have done the same thing-- gotta have reassurance after all the work it took to get to the pg place. Also congrats on learning to manage your m/s. Glad to hear from you. We worry you know. :)

Anonymous said...

Beautiful pic! I also had cravings for green apple during the first tri and they aren't something I normally eat much of. Interesting.

Carrie said...

look at those two beautiful little babies in your belly! I am glad that you're doing better now. Gosh i am so sorry if my "twin freakout" caused any of your stress. (I tend to freak out easily, and over everything, so take my ramblings with a grain of salt) :)

truth be told, i told becky today that im actually excited for us, if we get twins. how awesome is that? two kids of the same age, who can play together, talk about cute-ass family photos, they'll have a buddy at school, etc. they may play parent trap on you, so watch out. lol.

i am hoping and wishing and praying that everything continues smoothly, and that the two little puffers keep growing and thriving! Maybe they'll do some in utero bonding. :)

Gayby Rabies said...

It really is bizarre when you think about it, isn't it? There are two tiny human beings inside your body! They look adorable.

The Amily Diaries said...

OMG that ultrasound is super cute! what tiny humans. glad you have found an eating schedule that works for you

Keely said...

Congratulations on your LACK of sickness...I can understand not wanting to seem insensitive to others' ordeals, but this is *your* pregnancy and you have every right to be happy not to be feeling horrible!
I love the u/s. Is SB doing The Wave?
Mmm, smoothies!

Next in Line said...

I had hardly any sickness too but same as you, had terrible ultrasound withdrawal. I wanted them all the time. My midwife said to think of it as a good thing that I didn't need anymore. If I was constantly being sent for ultrasounds it would be because there was something to worry about.

2girlsandtheirfamily said...

You shouldn't feel guilty - you ladies totally paid your dues to get here!!
Your babies are really taking shape and looking AWESOME!!!