Friday, May 8, 2009

Feeling Grateful

My posts as of late have been depressing and selfish.  If I were reading from the outside, I probably would be skipping this blog because it's just too....much.

Today, I woke up early, threw open the shades and found the sunshine pouring in.  I felt so grateful for all I have in my life and wanted to remind myself.
The first song that came in my head while making breakfast was "Don't Worry" by Bob Marley and that's what I need to keep in mind right now.

I have so much to be grateful for at this exact moment.   Thank you to everyone who has been calling/texting/emailing to make sure I'm alright and encouraging me to fight the depression.  Many of you have been there with me during some of my darker days and your faith that I can fight this meant a lot to me.

I'm grateful for some small, but wonderful things today.  Like going upstate this weekend and spending time with K's family eating good food and making new memories.
Last night I made chive biscuits and tonight we'll eat these with K's mom's southern style pulled pork and it will be one of the best meals ever.
After that we'll top it off with the pear almond tarte I always make for K's mom in order to score DIL points.
I'm grateful for my wife who decided to pick up a hammer for the first time ever in our entire relationship to hang something because she got tired of asking me to do it!
I'm grateful that my wife fully supports me in everything I want to do, even when that means I leave her for months at a time to explore myself and my world.
I'm grateful that we can do this egg donor cycle and we have the finances and insurance to make it happen. (this is me looking grateful!)
  And I'm grateful for everyone out there reading this and cheering me on.
xoxo

Have a great weekend.

20 comments:

Jackie said...

So happy to hear that the sun is shining on you. I seriously thought of you when I saw the sun shininig down on us in NYC. I hope you and K have a wonderful time upstate!

babypants said...

The sun is amazing today. I am happy you are feeling so grateful and looking forward to a weekend away. I am so excited for this next fertility step for you guys and so hopeful. I am jealous of that pear tart - it looks delicious. and your hair is getting so long it looks fabulous. xo L

Joy said...

Nice post (love the pics). I've been reading them all, but I'm glad to know you're feeling better. Grateful is always a good place to be.

Lizzie said...

definitely out here, reading this, and cheering you on! lots of love!

glamcookie said...

What a great post! Between the baking mastery and the hotness, you're quite the catch, lady! Glad you're having an up day :)

cindyhoo2 said...

I am so glad that you are finding the sun. I love the photos and I hope you have a wonderful weekend.

A said...

This was a great post! Nothing wrong with being grateful and you do have so much to be grateful for. This process is so hard that it can really bring someone down and it takes work to be able to be happy. I'm so glad you are doing better.

luckylittle13 said...

Um, may I come to dinner too? I'm so happy that you have sunshine and a brighter outlook today. No need to feel bad for sad time posts. I've been there. This ttcing is a real goat screw, but I'm really excited for your egg donor cycle too. And, holy shit, you were standing on an elephant!

thebao said...

You are quite the baking goddess--everything looks delish. Have a blast this weekend--you deserve it! So glad you're feeling better.

Jen said...

Awesome post! And, that tart...are you kidding--it looks amazing. We all have a lot to be thankful for and thanks for the reminder! :)

Gayby Rabies said...

I'm grateful that this week of cold miserable rain seems to be over too! Enjoy your trip upstate-the tart looks soooo yummy.

Next in Line said...

So many beautiful things! Yay to sunshine making it through.

anofferingoflove said...

what a beautiful post! i love the pics! :D

mulberry said...

i'm glad the sun was able to shine in on you today. have a great weekend, and i will be sending you lots of love and good mojo for your donor cycle. xxoo anne

Jackie said...

Hi D, I hope you are enjoying today's sunshine! I wanted to drop a note to see if you could add Waiting for Mavis to your blogroll.

Many thanks! See ya this weekend.

poppycat said...

I am glad you have found the sunshine! We are greatful for you too.

Heather said...

I'm glad that you have found some sunshine, too!

Heidi said...

Good for you!!! I'm very proud of you and your wonderful make it positive attitude!!!

(that torte looks simply divine!)

insertmetaphor said...

Hooray for the sun. I'm glad April is behind you.

2girlsandtheirfamily said...

We love the positive attitude! We all know it is so hard to keep during the TTC journey sometimes but you seem to be in a great place!! And holy baker! Look at those muffins and tart! We see there are other benefits to K not traveling for work besides the obvious... what's she hanging? ;) Can't wait to see you ladies this weekend!