Tuesday, May 20, 2008

A Shot in the Stomach

Last night I had to give my cousin, who is squatting on my couch for three days, a shot in her stomach.
I didn't want to do it, but she couldn't/wouldn't do it herself and neither would her daughter.
That left me.
I said, "well, if I ever have to do injectables and/or IVF, this will give me an idea of what I'll have to do to myself."
Right after that I thought, "I think I've cursed myself.  Does this mean I'm going to be doing this?"
And for the first time all week, I felt not pregnant.

It's 7DPO and I know it's too early to tell one way or another and I really try SO hard not to obsess over every twinge or temp rise, but I felt for the first time ever this month I really could be pregnant this time.  I never felt that way with IUI #1 or #2....but this one had possibilities...until that shot in the stomach.

The shot wasn't so bad, I could do it to myself if I had to, but I'd much rather I didn't...

4 comments:

queerstork said...

I'm doing the same thing as you - reading too much into everything that happens during my TWW. I'll tell you what I've been telling myself: Stay calm. All these "signs", "feelings", and "intuitions" are pointing only to a big maybe or maybe not. The truth will come soon enough.

Now only if I could follow my own advice. It's hard.

insertmetaphor said...

I hope you never have to give yourself those shots. It's still early to know anything either way so you're definitely still in - I hope this is the month! I totally get the detail obsessing...oy, do I.

giggleblue said...

we find ourselves making similar comments! i think it's just because we don't to be TOO hopeful and then be let down. i don't know, but i agree, it is emotionally tasking..

Mrs. Bluemont said...

I don't believe in the jinx, but I'm all for intuition. Hope you get the preg feeling back. All crossed for you.xo