So I am completely in the clear on my TSH. If I don't get a positive from this donor egg cycle, it will NOT be because of my thyroid. My endocrinologist did a shitload of other tests as well, Free T4, etc etc. They all came back completely normal. I feel a great relief about all of this and knowing that my thyroid is in check.
Did I mention that I never even knew I was feeling tired, fatigued or mild depression until I started taking the synthroid and stopped feeling that way?
(the minor depression as of late is total culture shock/coming to terms with the fact I will never have a bio child/and readjustment to this (as of late but not today) crappy weather)
I think I'd lived with these symptoms for so long, I thought they were normal.
I don't know if it was Thailand (where I always lose weight) or the thyroid balancing itself out or what, but since starting the meds I've lost 7 lbs. Which means I am exactly where I was when I started the TTC process in Jan. 08. And that was my goal so at least I haven't failed at that. Thank fucking god.
In other news, I want to thank all of you for showing me such support. I've gone through a bit of a funk since returning. There was a lot to process and it didn't help that sunshine (literally) seemed to have left the earth. It's back now...I hope it stays around because I'm feeling a lot better. I've just been trying to stay off the internet and out of blogworld so I don't get so wrapped up. There are things that just aren't that good for me right now. I hope you understand blogosphere. I'm still here, just a bit more quietly than before.