Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Test Drive the Egg Basket

It's hard to look in the mirror and see someone so young and yet have your eggs be so old.
Me and my bad eggs, we're finished.

I know you can't compare making a baby (and the cost involved) to buying a car, but well, yes you can.
I am the lemon.  K is the Volvo.
Why would we keep spending more money to fix up the lemon when we have the chance to drive the Volvo?  Also, keep in mind I come from a long line of lemons and K's family has a garage of Volvos.

Since arriving home (5 days ago) I've been:
  • talking with the RE,
  • the egg donor program coordinator,
  • the insurance company, 
  • the billing department,
  • the psychologist assigned to our case,
  • had my blood drawn to do a gazillion tests related to my thyroid
  • set up an appointment for my endocrinologist to review the results of the thyroid testing 
  • set up all appointments for K to enter egg donor program
  • caught up on everyone's blogs
And that's just the TTC-related stuff!  I have been one busy Puff.

We've been looking down this path for so long...we didn't even need to talk about it that much.
It woke me up at 5:30 the morning after I got home and I just got up, starting making a list, looking at the calendar and figuring things out.
There's a possibility we might be able to do this at the end of May, but more probable is the first/middle of June.
While we both know there's no guarantee K has superstar eggs, we know hers are 8 years younger than mine--PERIOD.  So, we're going with that and hoping for the best.

It's good to be home.  Funny thing with K and I--we need no 'readjustment period'.  We each do so much travel and have for so many years...it's like I came in the door and it was like, "oh I'm home again".  Sometimes she'll come through the living room and smile looking at me and say "you're really home!" She's so cute and willing to do whatever it takes--even if she has to carry the damn baby herself--to make our little family dream come true.

16 comments:

Jen said...

Honestly not sure whether to say "I'm sorry" or to say "congrats on your new pro-active plan." I am sure it is a catch-22 of emotions. Although I do have age on my side, Tiff and I have thrown around this idea as well. Good luck on your new plan and enjoy being home!

glamcookie said...

Congratulations on making a plan. It's hard when a dream has to have some adjustments. {{{}}}

cindyhoo2 said...

I completely connected with your lemon/Volvo analogy. Yes I have had to admit to myself that my eggs are most likely something akin to an early 70's model green, rusting Nova.

There is certainly some grief that comes with accepting that your genes are unlikely to be the ones given to your child/ren. Sounds like you are making the transition with flying colors. My new thought is about how beautiful it will be to carry a baby created by the love of my life. I hope this also becomes your new happy thought as you move through this new plan.

Glad to have you back!

wishinghopingpraying said...

First, welcome back. We missed you!Second, congratulations on a new plan. I really hope this works for you.Third, I am so sorry you needed a new plan at all. Big hugs to you.

Gia said...

PUFFER!!!! WE MISSED YA!!!! WELCOME BACK!!!!

Jackie said...

I missed you. Many hugs! I know you'll have your family, by hook or by crook!

insertmetaphor said...

Wow, you have been busy! I'm so excited about and hopeful for your new plan.

shindagrl said...

Glad you're home safe, and that you two have made your decision. Now go make me an Auntie, dammit! ;)

anofferingoflove said...

welcome home! sounds like you hit the ground running!

Next in Line said...

You and K work together so well. This is a great new plan. I love how quick you get things together once a decision has been made. You are a superstar!

babypants said...

I think it is great that you have a new plan. I am hopeful and so ready to read of your bfp. Welcome home. xoxo L

Eva said...

Welcome home and good luck, girl! I hope this plan works for you.xo

queerstork said...

When life gives you lemons... sorry I couldn't resist. I think you are making lemonade though! Sweet, sweet lemonade. Any plan that brings you closer to baby-in-arms is a good one. I'm glad you're back and am glad you have lovely K on your team.

Mommy and Mamita said...

Welcome back. Good luck with the new plan.

The Amily Diaries said...

Wow you have been busy! Welcome home. I hope the new plan works out and ends in a BFP!

nishkanu said...

Thanks for the comment and good luck with your cycle! I hope it goes really well for you guys.