Friday, April 17, 2009

Kicking My Thyroid's Ass

Two months ago my TSH was 6.27.
Now?  .543

So I am completely in the clear on my TSH.  If I don't get a positive from this donor egg cycle, it will NOT be because of my thyroid.  My endocrinologist did a shitload of other tests as well, Free T4, etc etc.  They all came back completely normal.  I feel a great relief about all of this and knowing that my thyroid is in check.

Did I mention that I never even knew I was feeling tired, fatigued or mild depression until I started taking the synthroid and stopped feeling that way?  
(the minor depression as of late is total culture shock/coming to terms with the fact I will never have a bio child/and readjustment to this (as of late but not today) crappy weather) 
I think I'd lived with these symptoms for so long, I thought they were normal.  

I don't know if it was Thailand (where I always lose weight) or the thyroid balancing itself out or what, but since starting the meds I've lost 7 lbs.  Which means I am exactly where I was when I started the TTC process in Jan. 08.  And that was my goal so at least I haven't failed at that. Thank fucking god.

In other news, I want to thank all of you for showing me such support.  I've gone through a bit of a funk since returning.  There was a lot to process and it didn't help that sunshine (literally) seemed to have left the earth.  It's back now...I hope it stays around because I'm feeling a lot better.  I've just been trying to stay off the internet and out of blogworld so I don't get so wrapped up.  There are things that just aren't that good for me right now.  I hope you understand blogosphere.  I'm still here, just a bit more quietly than before.

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am happy to hear that the medication is working so well and is helping you feel better too. I hope this all leads to great sucess for your next cycle. xo L

Anonymous said...

be as quiet as you'd like, we all understand! glad to hear you are feeling a little more upbeat.

Melissa said...

Everyone needs some quiet time from all of this every once and a while. Such great news about you levels!!

Next in Line said...

Blogland will always be here when you want to come back. Vacations are good. That is great news about your thyroid and feeling better.

sarah said...

presence is presence - be it quiet or not.

tbean said...

It's always good to hear from you when you feel like posting. Glad the thyroid issue is SO much better. Mwah. xoxo

Anonymous said...

Of course I understand. Please do what's best for you right now, that's important. Great news about the thyroid!

cindyhoo2 said...

Excellent news on the thyroid front. Sounds like you are ready to get your baby now (and to feel good)! We will all enjoy your presence when you feel that the timing is right and we can all respect your need for space.

Carrie said...

I'm glad they've got you on synthroid. that should definitely help with energy levels. And I totally understand on slightly removing yourself from the blogosphere. I've been doing some of that lately. Sometimes it's equally painful to see all the BFPs out there, as it is to see those of us who continue to suffer through this journey. PS - losing 7lbs is AWESOME, im so proud of you!

Anonymous said...

That's great news about your medication working, must be great to feel so much better. And yay for sunshine :)

Heather said...

I wish and hope that you will get your baby in your arms... I'm glad that the meds are working, take care of yourself, we'll be here when you come back =)

Lizzie said...

hey you, i'm just back from africa. getting caught up. so sorry to hear you struggling with the notion of failure. it's so brutal. i am SO EXCITED that you will carry K's eggs. i would love to do it that way, i think it is truly beautiful for partners to make a baby that way. have missed you. congrats on kicking thyroid ass. big hug.

The Amily Diaries said...

That is great news! fingers are crossed!

Schroedinger said...

Fingers crossed... You have a beautiful relationship and are in a great city (better now that it's sunny) and have tons of support-- and now you're remembering what it is to feel good. This is all excellent!