Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
I broke down yesterday and POASed. It was quite negative and bummed me out for most of the morning. Then I talked to a friend of mine who reminded me that she POASed on Day 15 one month, it tested negative and that was the month she really was pregnant.
So, I'm not running out to go scuba diving, wine swilling, sushi eating, and soft cheese gorging just yet.
The wait sucks.
And today I feel like I'm getting my PMS headache. Which sucks even more.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
****I'm a big breakfast eater and always consume a full three meals....let's see what happens!
Doesn't explain Posh and her three boys though, does it?!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
On the PC at the office, a shot I took of a postcard perfect beach on Little Corn Island, Nicaragua where we went diving in May 07.
At home on the Mac..um, whatever it came with when I turned it on. God, I should do something about that.
Q. How many televisions you have in your house?
One and it’s dying. We get about an hour a night out of night but have found that if we don’t turn it on at all during the week, it might go for up to THREE hours on the weekend before it flat lines and blacks out.
Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Glass, lots of glass, from a hideous car wreck I was in at 15.
Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
I’m not supposed to be lifting any heavy items as I’m in my TWW…but I’d have to say the 30 lb boxes of kitty litter I picked up an hour before my last IUI.
Q. Have you ever been knocked out?
I was knocked out for my wisdom teeth, that was fun…
Physically, a gang of girls beat me up in high school and I remember seeing stars, but I don’t think I blacked completely out.
Alcohol has knocked me out many, many times.
Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
Oh…YES! It would be much more effective in terms of saving for retirement vs. going on vacation!
Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
I like my first name, hate my last one. Only Irish names sound like they belong with my first name and I’m not happy with that either, so I don’t know—totally stumped on this one.
Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item?
Yes, I remember eating take out a number of years ago and as I finished up, I realized that I was one tong lighter on my plastic fork.
Damn, I must’ve been hungry.
Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
Same sex, opposite sex….Sure!
Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
Wow, that made me waggle my pinkie around a little bit to see how much I really needed it.
I don’t think I need it that much, so yeah, maybe.
Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000?
Blogging Finished. Show me the money.
Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
I’d strip right now.
Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
Why not! There’s always water.
Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
Yes! But my stepfather died of a heart attack before I could take him out.
Q: What is in your left pocket?
Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
It’s fucking hilarious.
Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
Carpet and 3 cats? No thanks! All hardwoods.
Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
Standing Tiger, Crouching Dragon (while shaving)
Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
Q: Last person who texted you?
Q: Last person who called you?
Q: Person you hugged?
The old lady next door, but it wasn’t a good idea because I almost knocked her over.
Summer, so I can walk around naked (just in the house folks! OK, there have been a few nude beaches…).
Q: Missing someone?
K and my house before the painters came.
Oh some ONE. Oops.
Restless and Unfocused.
Q: Listening to?
Wynton Marsalis, the maid vacuuming the office, someone talking louder than both of these things.
The computer screen. And the clock.
Q: Worrying about?
Will I stop procrastinating long enough tomorrow to finish this RFP sitting on my desk, how I am going to put my house back together when the painters leave today, what I have to throw away, will anyone buy my shit from Craigslist or should I just take it to Goodwill, should I rent a car to go to IKEA and get started on some serious organization projects or just go to the Container Store down the street, how much is it going to cost me to do that and complete those framing projects that have been in a pile for years, where will K’s next project be, will we be able to go on vacation next month or will she start on another project immediately, are my mom and I going to get along with each other when I visit her in 9 days, and Ummm,
Am I Pregnant YET?????????
Light blue metallic flats, Armani skinny legged jeans, and a sheer, long-sleeved, scoop-necked blue and grey polka dot blouse.
Q: First place you went this morning?
Bruno’s for breakfast of decaf and oatmeal w/ granola and strawberries because the painter was in MY kitchen at 8am.
I never eat breakfast out, not even coffee. It felt so indulgent and decadent to be up early, eating outside, reading the Wall Street Journal and watching everyone hurry by.
Q: What can you not wait to do?
Organize the house. Go on vacation.
Q: Do you smile often?
Not so much. I don’t like my smile and it causes wrinkles. Why do something that causes wrinkles when you don’t even like how it makes you look?
Q: Are you a friendly person?
I talk to people in elevators and compliment strangers on their shoes. I think so.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Friday, April 18, 2008
Many well meaning people have told me that once I get pregnant I will (1) have to stop cleaning the litter box and (2) possibly get rid of my cats.
Neither need to happen nor are going to happen. First of all, it would not work with our lives and the fact K travels Monday-Thursday and second of all, these concerns about toxoplasmosis don't really apply for women with INDOOR CATS.
If you're expecting a baby, you may have heard of toxoplasmosis because it can cause serious birth defects. A woman who acquires toxoplasmosis during pregnancy can transmit the infection to her unborn child. And a congenital toxoplasmosis infection in utero can lead to miscarriage or an array of malformations at birth. Because one of the ways to become infected is through contact with the infected feces of cats, many pregnant women try to lower their risk of acquiring toxoplasmosis by giving their cat away or putting the cat outside.
Thankfully, you can easily avoid contracting toxoplasmosis from cat feces without giving up your beloved feline "baby." Cats acquire toxoplasmosis from eating contaminated raw meat, birds, mice, or soil. While cats are the only species of animal to shed the infectious stage in their feces, other animals can disseminate toxoplasmosis if their infected meat is eaten without proper cooking.
Likelihood of Contracting Toxoplasmosis
Because it's difficult for cats to transmit toxoplasmosis directly to their caregivers, a pregnant woman is generally unlikely to contract the disease from her pet cat. Several factors keep the chance of such transmission low.
First of all, only cats who ingest tissue cysts acquire infection. Within the feline population, this would be limited to outdoor cats who hunt and eat rodents, as well as cats who are fed raw meat by their owners. In addition, only after a cat is first exposed to T. gondii does he typically excrete oocysts, and he does so for only two weeks. An outdoor hunting cat is often exposed to the disease as a kitten and is, therefore, less likely to transmit the infection as he ages.
Secondly, because oocysts become infective only after one to five days, exposure to the disease is unlikely as long as the cat's litter box is changed daily.
Finally, since oocysts are transmitted by ingestion, in order to contract toxoplasmosis, a woman would have to make contact with contaminated feces in the litter box and then, without washing her hands, touch her mouth or otherwise transmit the contaminated fecal matter to her digestive system.
Reducing Your Risk of Toxoplasmosis
Even though it is unlikely that a woman will contract toxoplasmosis from her cat, it's a good idea to err on the side of caution. The following recommendations will help cat owners expecting a child to reduce their risk of contracting toxoplasmosis.
- Avoid undercooked meat.
- Wash all uncooked vegetables thoroughly.
- Be certain to wash all cutting boards and utensils that may have come in contact with meat before using them to prepare other foods.
- Wear gloves when working in soil. If gloves are not worn, hands need to be washed thoroughly following soil contact.
- Ask a spouse, friend, or neighbor to help out with litter box duties while you're pregnant.
- If you don't have help to keep the litter box clean, wear rubber gloves when changing the litter and thoroughly wash your hands afterwards.
- Change your cat's litter on a daily basis.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
I had an U/S yesterday and there was one nice looking follice at 18.5mm, so by the time of the IUI maybe it had reached 20mm.
The timing has me a little freaked. I think that last month K and I truly did see it as almost a 'practice run' and we weren't expecting too much. This month feels more real and thus has me scared of the very low percentages of a natural cycle IUI at my 'advanced age' (38) and the short lifespan of frozen sperm (6-12 hours VS 3 days for the fresh stuff).
The timing is so tight and crucial, it's a wonder anyone ever gets pregnant!
My acupuncturist wants me to start temping again and the funny thing is, I'd started doing it the night before myself.
Going to the RE and Big Fertility Center can make you forget that you are still the best advocate for what your body is doing and I realized that I need to have some power over that.
The blood work and the ultrasounds are great, but I want to temp as well.
Next month--if I'm not pregnant, I'll be getting a speculum to check out my cervix and see what's going on in there. If you don't know what I mean and it's just TMI...you can read all about it here.
Overall, it went rather smoothly. My nurse had a bit more trouble threading the catheter in this time, but it wasn't painful, just uncomfortable and took a little longer. She likes to talk to me while she's going about the business which is great as it might take your mind off it, but at one point, I had to say, "I'm going to stop talking and just breathe now, OK?"
Afterwards, I texted K, but she was in a meeting and couldn't call me right back. So, I put on my iPod and listened to a few songs by Elisa before heading to the office. K and I were able to talk on my way to work and she is being very supportive.
It's hard for both of us that she's not around much to be a part of this on a day to day level.
But as she travels for work Monday-Thursday, it's difficult.
We have a busy weekend ahead with a silent rave in Union Square Friday night (this is about 2000 people dancing around with their iPods on!), a farewell BBQ for my German friend on her apartment terrace tomorrow afternoon/evening, and a baby christening of K's nephew on Sunday in Princeton.
I have something planned almost every single night next week--even if it's just yoga or pilates as it makes the TWW go by much, much faster!
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Tuesday night at 11:30pm? I don't do that anymore...but I did tonight!
It was a late night concert at Joe's Pub and the US debut performance for Elisa, the Italian superstar.
I brought a friend with me (thanks CW!) guaranteeing that there would be cute Italians even if she didn't like the music--but as I thought, she loved Elisa, too.
She's available on iTunes. Go get download crazy. You won't regret it.
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
One of my best friends in the entire world got married on Friday. Congratulations Senora Morales! This is the same friend I called on the table after IUI #1, she's the sister I never had.
Friday, April 4, 2008
I've spoken to my nurse and we're on to IUI #2. Basically the same protocol as last month and this is the overall map of what I'm doing:
- March/April/May = unmedicated IUI's with trigger shots
- June/July/August = IUI w/ drugs, probably Clomid and trigger
- After August = Gimme the hard drugs, we're going IVF baby!
- My body is working; I have regular periods and I ovulate regularly.
- Dr. VID says I have a perfect uterus.
- I am in excellent health.
- I walk to work and back and am thankful my legs and feet carry me without fail for one hour every single day.
- I eat a healthy, mostly organic diet.
- My insurance policy that is (so far) covering this.
- Many wonderful friends and family members who support me and care about me.
- A good job that isn't the most fulfilling but at least doesn't make me miserable and best of all provides me with a great deal of flexibility.
- Three cats that love me as soon as I walk in the door every single day!
- My partner, because I cannot imagine doing this without K.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
ReCap of New Orleans Because I Love This City and Yes, it Does Look Like a Horse is On Top of My Head
Bless her heart, but a photographer my K is not. In Jackson Square, this is the 4th shot and after I cropped out some random guy's arm. I love her anyway.