Thursday, January 28, 2010

So tired

The visit to the doctor's was fine although everyone was talking about how wiped out I looked.
Now that I'm on blood pressure meds and iron pills I should be getting better. They were very concerned about me getting enough rest.
I have no idea how to do that yet until I can get them tandem all the time. Not easy as sebastian aka whoop whoop, fights getting on. But once he's there he could stay for 30-40 minutes.
His brother, Grunter, does better getting on but doesn't stay as long.
We'll get there, we've only had 5 days practice.

At least they are both breast feeding and I'm getting more milk from pumping. Not enough to stop the formula, but soon I hope.
I am having a really hard time finding the time to fit pumping in every two hours as well. But I have the hands free breast pump and just ordered a bra so I can actually use that feature when it arrives on friday! That will free up my hands which is going to be great.

I have massive swelling and fluid retention in my legs, feet and ankles. I realize now I barely had any swelling during the pregnancy compared to this. The thing is, walking and moving is supposed to help that, but it also raised my blood pressure so what's a girl to do?!

We are both starting to suffer from the effects of sleep deprivation.
It's really hard, even with my mom here. Damn hard. But we are getting into a routine slowly. Keeping a log of every single thing really helps as it gets so confusing.

We are enjoying it and they are so cute we could just eat them up, but tired? Yes indeed.

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Two Moms, Two Monkeys said...

Hang in there Mama! It is totally hard in the begining but gets easier as the boys settle into a routine. By 3 months, life takes a BIG turn for the better. ;)

We always joked that singletons get 2 parents and so twins should get 4! Sleep (or lack thereof) was the hardest part for us, which is probably true for all new parents, but there is light at the end of the tunnel! Try and be patient with eachother.

Take care of yourself, and try and nap whenever people are visiting with the babies, even if its only 30 min. I cut the chit chat and let them hold the babies while I would lay down and rest for a bit or take a shower. Its amazing how much better you feel in just 30 min.

Pumping and b'feeding is a pain in the begining because its like you go from nursing to pumping and then back to nursing again. Try and do it as much as possible right now so that your body responds by making more than enough milk. Its easier in the early days to increase your milk production and maintain enough for two.

If you have friends that want to come visit, ask them to bring dinner and let them clean up the mess before they leave. Also, when they ask what they could do to help, point them to the sink and let them wash bottles. Its a small gesture that you will be oh so thankful for at 3am!

Two Moms, Two Monkeys said...

Oh and as for the log, we bought small notebooks to keep track of feedings, dirty diapers, and anything else worth noting. Its the only way to maintain your sanity and know that both are eating, pooping, peeing, etc. I also had a log for pumping so I could remember when I last pumped and how much milk I got. ;)

Anonymous said...

Hi there Puffermama,

hope you are getting well sooner! For your tiredness may I ask if you get enough high quality food? And enough rest (yes, I know...)? So, now I stop being super smart ( I hope you do not get me wrong...) and just sending you hugs and a lot of ~ get well soon-vibes~.
Ma, you are one of my biggest inspirations,uber-cute babys with your loved one`s nose, an iphone. Can I girl want more?
No, serious, any time I want to give up my ttc yourney I read your blog, the old posts, the new, the whole stuff.
And then I know I will continue. And I know it is worth it.
For now I hope you`ll get your fly legs back soon and that your bp came down to a real serene state.
xoxo from Berlin, Monika

Schroedinger said...

I am sure it'll get easier as everyone promises. Just getting through THIS part is quite the challenge, though. Glad your mom could come to help. Hopefully the hands-free pump will give you a break, too. Sounds like you are doing everything you can to keep everyone healthy right now. I hope the BP pills & iron help you regain your strength.

I want to come by and bring you guys a meal-- give me your orders!

Lizzie said...

I don't have any sage advice, but lots of love! xo

nutella said...

Those early days were so hard, and we only had the 1 baby. Don't stress too much about the swelling and water retention. Sometime soon your body will realize it doesn't need to hang on to it and you'll just pee it out. Mine took about 2 weeks, I think.

You are doing great as a mama, and with feeding and pumping, too. I'm glad you have help. Hang in there, it gets better!

Bella said...

First off, congrats on your boys!!! They are so adorable! I hope you start feeling better very soon and that your BP cooperates. Try to get as much rest as you can! ((HUGS))

anofferingoflove said...

Hang in there, you will sleep again someday! Writing everything down is a great idea; we did that because I could not remember anything over five minutes ago! And I just had one!

Sounds like you are going a great job of getting breastfeeding underway. It is so hard in the begining, but it too will get better. Promise.

Anonymous said...

Oh that postpartum swelling is obnoxious, but it will go away, as Nutella said, and it will be such a relief!

I can only imagine how tired you must be; it's such an adjustment having one baby, but having two and recovering from a cesarean as well takes the cake. You're already doing so well--just hang in there. Each day will start to get a little easier. For now, just keep enjoying staring at those beautiful boys!

Sending you all much love.

oneofhismoms said...

Congratulations, Moms!

While you await that bra, you can just cut slits in a tight sports bra (one you used while pregnant would work) and use that instead.

Carey said...

There are a few baby apps on the iphone to help you keep track of things!!

It will get easier as you settle into your routine. KEEP A ROUTINE. I cannot stress that enough. You want those boys on a schedule so you can manage it all - the parents of multiples that don't have a schedule really seemed to struggle more IMO. Our schedule saved us. It still does to this day.

Don't sweat the formula... you guys are in survival mode for the next 6 months - year. You will be doing the best that you can, even if that means doing things you thought you might never. Like letting your kids sleep in swings. I loved our swings - set up right next to our bed. It was the ONLY way Little Miss would sleep for hours on her own. Never thought I would do something like that! You do whatever works... so you can sleeeeep!!

The pumping is a bitch in the beginning, but you will find your groove. I had a timer I set which helped me to remember.

One last thing - maybe you take the first half of the night and Chicken takes the second? You will still have to pump, but soon (if not already) you can do that in your sleep! :) That is something we did which really helped too!

Gayby Rabies said...

Just reading about your day is exhausting! It sounds like you and Chicken are doing a great job. You're lucky to have your mother there for support, and the convenience of living in the city. Could you imagine what it would be like if you lived in the middle of nowhere, with no 24 hour pharmacy, no food delivery, etc? Yikes!

AdventuresInBabyMaking said...

Wow, lots of challenges, but I know you both are doing an amazing job! :)