Thursday, October 30, 2008

I'm Special

Me and H.P. had a nice long talk last night. That would be my higher power. I confessed that this was now getting a little harder and to send me a sign, any sign of what was going on.
When we finished talking, I got up to go to the bathroom and had started bleeding. Right through the progesterone.
So, the sign was to go ahead and sleep in rather than get my ass up too damn early on a cold morning and take a blood test at the big fancy clinic? I slept in.
This morning I had to go to the drugstore anyway, so I went ahead and picked up an HPT, just to waste money.

The RE and I have had our little BFN talk and this is the part where I'm special: I'm going back to Clomid. Yes, it seems I'm the only woman to ever try IVF and go back to Clomid (ok, maybe not the only one, but you find me another one. My acupuncturist has never heard of such a thing either). I'm telling you, I was the Clomid poster child and it got me pregnant once. Remember when I told you I was having a massage in Bali and I heard a voice telling me to do another round of Clomid? Yeah. Listen to your inner voice kids, even the crazy voices usually have a message.

I don't know about you but dancing with wild abandon in my living room always makes me feel better no matter what. That, and cooking. So, I've made a delicious soup and in between stirring, danced like my life depended on it--hair flinging all around and I think at one point some spit even flew out of my mouth.
I leave you with the video for L.e Ti.gre so you can see if it works for you and the soup recipe which is perfect for these cool days.

Parsley Potato Soup

Delicious, nutritious, and freezes well.
4 cups potatoes, peeled and cubed
4 slices bacon
1 large onion, chopped
½ cup chopped celery
¼ cup fresh chopped parsley or 1/3 cup dry parsley
4 cups chicken stock
2 cups milk or half and half
3 tablespoons cornstarch
Salt and pepper to taste
½ teaspoon nutmeg
Fresh parsley for garnish

Pour chicken stock into saucepan and heat on medium. Meanwhile fry bacon until crisp. Remove from pan and crumble into warmed stock. Saute onion and celery in the bacon fat until golden then add to saucepan along with potatoes and parsley. Bring to a boil and cover and simmer until tender. Stir in the milk and continue cooking until hot but do not allow it to boil. Mix cornstarch in a small cup with 2 tablespoons of water. Add this to the soup continuing to cook and stir until thickened. Add the nutmeg and add salt and pepper to taste. Enjoy!


Jackie said...

Poo poo padoo. I am going to be positive in this comment, though. Positively thrilled that you are going to follow your heart and inner voice next cycle.

Enjoy the dancing and soup.


eeney meeney miney mommy said...

Shit! So sorry :(

j.k-c. said...

Soup sounds good and so does crazy dancing.
BFN does not sound good and I'm so, so sorry. (((hugs)))
Glad that you are listening to your inner voice.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry. S didn't do IVF but went back to Clomid after and injectable cycle. It worked really well for her too. I really am so sorry.

Anonymous said...

A BFN?! That's impossible. Oh damn.

Obey the clomid and everything will be fine.

Love Le Tigre, love the dancing plan.

vee said...

Dexter was wrong? That sucks. Sorry. Melody (indyness) got pg with IUI after 2 rounds of IVF.

Jen said...

I am so sorry. Try to stay positive and welcome the clomood.

Kellee said...

Sorry about the BFN. I'm not sure if it is offered at your clinic, but some doctors will do IVF with clomid. Something probably worth looking into at least.

2girlsandtheirfamily said...

Oh NO! Sending you big hugs... Keep up the positive attitude and remember how well you responded to!

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry but glad you're being positive and have another plan. Dancing and soup sound like a good combo- despite the fact that it's meant to be spring here, it's pretty cold so I might just try it this weekend..

stepping up said...

Ok clomid do your magic more fancy smancy fertility drugs :) Good advice HP. Keep it coming. You are getting closer and closer to your BFP.

K said...

Grrr... I'm so sorry.

Good for you for dancing and cooking anyway. AF has spoiled more than her share of perfectly wonderful evenings already. Moving back to Clomid sounds like a great plan. If it ain't broke, don't fix it, right?

Keely said...

I am so sorry about your bfn. Dexter may be a false prophet but you are bringing so much lusciously good energy into your life right's bound to pay off. And Le Tigre makes everything better! Now I got some celeriac at the co-op last night... any idea what to do with it?!

Strawberry said...

Ugh, so sorry about the BFN. If the Clomid worked once, it can work again. I don't think you are strange at all for taking a step back.

Anonymous said...

I think it is great that you are going to go with Clomid again... and that you feel so good with your decision. It was nice to see you yesterday. Have a good weekend.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry about the bfn. I think going back on clomid is fabulous. I like thinking of the clomid poster on which we would find your smiling face. It would be a very nice poster.

Eva said...

Hey, it's important to trust your instincts. You go girl!

my cowgirl alter-ego said...

my ivf failed, but a few months later i got knocked up on clomid ...twice. (staying pregnant is a whole other story).

worked though... you are next!